I will sing of your steadfast love, O Lord, forever.
~ Psalm 89:1
It amazes me to think that at any given time any of us might feel unloved, or not wanted.
It's a human condition that we all have experienced.
I went through a very dark period where I had managed to become completely isolated from my friends and family. I couldn't seem to see my own self worth, so why would I want to surround myself with those who saw more in myself than I did?
It's strange for me to think that I would do that to myself, but I did.
We do all kinds of things through our life that could be associated with some type of self-destruction.
I have often wondered if the relationship between Jesus and Judas was similar to what I have shared.
Here you have the son of God telling one of his own to go out and complete the plans that he had been creating to bring an end to Jesus' life.
Having the "rest of the story" available to us through scripture, we know that the dark plans, and the acts that followed, provide for us the knowledge that eternity comes at a cost. Although God has already made that journey for us, it is challenging for us not to experience glimpses of what this pain felt like.
As we continue our Lenten journey, being mindful of our own times of trouble and pain, we are never fully alone. The love of God is always present.
Stay in God's grip!
G. Todd Williams (c) 2017
Dear God, I often don't know the plans You have for me, may I trust that through every moment You are with me, helping me to remain faithful. Amen.
Rev. G. Todd Williams lives in the Houston metro area and is a Hospice Chaplain at Essential Hospice, Webster, Texas, and is an ordained Christian Church (Disciples of Christ) pastor.