I will sing of your steadfast love, O Lord, forever.
~ Psalm 89:1
It amazes me to think that at any given time any of us might feel unloved, or not wanted. It's a human condition that we all have experienced.
I went through a very dark period where I had managed to become completely isolated from my friends and family. I couldn't seem to see my own self worth, so why would I want to surround myself with those who saw more in myself than I did.
It's strange for me to think that I would do that to myself, but I did. We do all kinds of things through our life that could be associated with some type of self-destruction.
I have often wondered if the relationship between Jesus and Judas was similar to what I have shared.
Here you have the son of God telling one of his own to go out and complete the plans that he had been creating to bring an end to Jesus' life.
Having the "rest of the story" available, we know that the dark plans, and the acts that followed, provide for us the knowledge that eternity comes at a cost. Although God has already made that journey for us, it is challenging for us not to experience glimpses of what this pain felt like.
As we begin our Lenten journey, being mindful of our own times of trouble and pain, we are never fully alone. The love of God is always present.
God of all creation,
Today we are met with the words that from dust we have been formed and to dust we shall return.
That our life can coexist with love, joy, sorrow and pain, and with You.
We are glad for this season of Lent that we are beginning.
We pray for the losses that we have encountered,
For the blessings we have received,
And for reminding us that with You all things are possible.
Stay in God's grip!
G. Todd Williams (c) 2019
Rev. G. Todd Williams lives in the Houston metro area and is a Hospice Chaplain and ordained Christian Church (Disciples of Christ) pastor.